SCREAM

i scream....

so much pain and so much hurt,
i hide, i hide,
and smile, i smile.
the soft cheeks are wet with the monsoon rain.
is this salty tear or a drop of dew?

sun shinning brilliantly,
or is it ur face that i see?
slowly i open my eyes,
and the nightmare is past.

dreams, dreams, dreams,
so real do they seem.
could i but dream all day and night?
could i just hold u close to my heart?

cry and not cry,
smile and not laugh,
happy and be glad,
slow and still fast,
my heart beats and i knw that i am alive.

muddle, bigger and better
and greater and sadder,
i create, and i destroy,
every second,
every minute,
every hour.....

i swim out, and crash against the rock,
shatter, pain, blood...
sweat and tears...
close my eyes, i will sleep now...
an eternal sleep, just once,
but u won't be mine,
not now, not ever.
close ur eyes and dream,
see me, save me, hold me...
i need u....
i do..
i do...
i do....
please..
please...
i beg u.
and i pray..
and i cry...
and i faint...
and then when u turn away... inspite of all...
i,
i,
i....... DIE.